Fountains Of Wayne - Sink To The Bottom

It was World Autism Day on 2nd April and though I'm a little late, I just feel like wanting to write this little something. I don't know as what. I just wanted to write this, even though it isn't much.

I'm autistic. And yes, little aspects of it sometimes really get me agitated. Not that I would want to be something else. But it just does sometimes. If you've read my blog entries previously, I kind of sound annoyed sometimes.
But I've also written a lot about love.And that is what I really want to write about right now.

I am someone who shouldn't have fallen in love. And I did. And I am. And that is magical. Magical to an extent which I wonder if you can understand. Something that never should have happened, but it did.

Usually, I get annoyed with things I cannot understand. And here is something to which no mystery can compare, and yet it only feels so obvious to fall in love with someone so beautiful. A mystery to which I do not care if it stays a mystery forever.

It feels like you are falling off a height, only to learn how to fly. It feels like a picture is engraved on your heart forever. It feels like you'll either burst or melt, but you don't. Your heart beats like never before, and yet finds a certain comfort. And you wonder how beautiful someone can be? Someone who is like a light that your heart follows, among all the chaos and the frenzy of the world that I've never quite understood.

Love.

Keep your heart open. I don't know all kinds of autism or what anyone else who is thinks. All I want to say is...Love is the best thing that can happen to anyone. And love is for everyone. It really is. You probably just have to come across someone who is beautiful enough.

I am in love with someone. And I don't care how it ends up. Because it will never end.  I will never be able to or want to stop loving him. Because he will never stop being beautiful. He just keeps becoming lovelier everytime. And I will love him forever and more. And when I see him, even forever and more doesn't feel enough.