:)

There where you want to see it....

(Play this as you read, because autoplay can be annoying)

Debussy - Claire de Lune - Piano.mp3
Freedom, even though little, makes you feel strange, new perhaps.
Today I feel free.Like I'm on a beach, not very commercial, not spotless, not very dirty either.
Maybe I'm the only one here.Or if there is someone else, I don't even care.
The view is beautiful.
I feel the sand between my toes, and the sun that lightly warms it.And the nice light of the sun.
Warm,but pleasant.
And the winds in my hair.
AS I sit and look to what looks as infinity.
The birds in the sky.
The broken boats.
And it never felt so calm, as I feel the water touch my feet and go back with waves.

I think I lost a fear.
The fear to gain something.
:)

I might just need wings.

..when you want to learn everything...because one thing leads to the other and it finally involves everything.
But we need to start from the basics...

...of really no apparent use..

..but out of probably a word closer to curiosity.

Note:It's enjoyable

Play this...

Dario Marianelli - Pride and Prejudice - 09 - Liz on Top of the World But there are just to many people to thank...and chains of events..

So I'm just thanking them as a mass, not personally.Even if they will never know.
So after all that....
I'm surprised at myself.
As I see what is in front of me...
A book(not one that can be called fiction or a novel) for seeing...
And a celebration, a revolt and a renewal for myself.....

I do not have a reason.
I do not want one.
I must be mad.
And I feel shy like a kid.
Though others seemed more shocked of my awakening of interest.

Haha.

Play this...

Dario Marianelli - Pride And Prejudice - 02 - Stars And Butterflies
Life is strange.
And so is love.
Perhaps even stranger.

With all what my heart feels.
I really cannot describe well.

It's hard to predict what love makes you feel.
You do not know where unknown rivers take you, once you decide to go with the flow.
Or witness the magic of a lifetime, in another of the same kind.
A magic without secrets.
And beauty beyond understanding.
Perhaps, just a close enough word.

Weaving you slowly into life..
Life and love...

I fail to understand a situation so simple and misty.
I feel like a hipocrite.
As I feel slowly getting inclined to getting judgmental.
And seems maybe,just my ignorance.

But I cannot overcome the feeling of annoyance.
The annoyance of it all.
How can there be blindness to so much that seems obvious?

Yes, it is none of my business.
Simply none.
But I can no longer ignore the silent annoyance of the event that has found a neuron in my head.
I terribly fail to understand.

I feel strange in my heart.
Of love and something else.

Is it because mice are blind?
Or is it because too much light closes our eyes?
Or is it that people no longer believe in magic?

I feel small.
As I continue to flow with water.
A soul of water.
How amazingly splendid!!

Perhaps, we take too much for granted.

Loving.
As indespensible as breathing now.
Perhaps merged with life.
Growing life, as love grows.
But where the river goes, I do not know.
But all water comes from you and flows to you.

I simply do no know.
Or understand, why I feel like this tonight?
Or why I have this strange reason for annoyance with the world tonight?

I will never understand.
Even if I wish to.
Because I cannot associate to that.
I still wonder, silently.

I think of stars in those eyes.
And butterflies in my stomach.
I still must be a teenager.
I wonder, how one can let go of magic beyond words?
I can't.
I'm glad I can't.

Tonight..
There is joy....and a surfacing tinge of annoyance.

I look beyond my window
I look at the empty sky
I see a forest
Below the northern lights

I hear the clouds swinging
I hear the fields sway
I look beyond my ocean
To see where water stays

I feel the rhythm singing
To an unending life
I talk to angels
Through all eternal time

I sleep in the willows
My heart holds more
I seek to know
And forget it all

I see the light
Through an unending night
I seek to find
I feel to sigh

I do not know
I do not sleep
I carry and flow
Past million sheep

There is no sure
There is no wish
The rivers weep
As the wind will keep

For the dew on a rose
On the break of dawn
I will see
I will see it all

I was quite stuck with my drawing for a couple of years..
And I mean seriously stuck.I was growing impatient and all.And I wanted to improve.

I think I made some progress this time with these two I drew recently.


This one is of Natalie Portman.



But I was really excited after this one of Kate Beckinsale.

It looked more 3D and I could get a little bit of life into her eyes. But eyes is something I do well.I'm happy about the nose because I ususally don't do that well. And the shading was nice instead of just the drawing.

I really don't know the techniques because I was too restless for classes.So most of it I learnt by observation and through the internet. You could say, it's freehand.

But someday, I'd like to take up classes.Haha.
I really mess up big time with colors.

So, well.
I'm just happy for now.

:)

XD

Nothing
Mad
Feel
Love
I don't know


Have fun people.;)

It hasn't been the same.It feels like a rebirth.I feel like the phoenix.

I've never felt so close to life.Maybe ,I'm just driving myself mad.But who cares, I'm enjoying this.A few days ago, I wouldn't have said that.

No.I'm not feeling something extraordinary.It's life itself.I'm no longer pretending to be in control.Or that I know.A series of events lead to another.I do not wish to speak about that right now.

I'm feeling light, unbothered, love.
And the joy of it all.
I feel the dynamic peace.

Dance.More than an art.A celebration.I danced tonight with my eyes closed.I won't say much.Dance and get carried away.Try it and you'll know it.

I looked up a little about it.
I read a few sentences in wikipedia - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dance
And some interested me.
1.Dance  is an art form that generally refers to movement of the body, usually rhythmic and to music used as a form of expression, social interaction or presented in a spiritual or performance setting.
2.Dance is also used to describe methods of non-verbal communication (see body language) between humans or animals (bee dance, patterns of behaviour such as a mating dance), motion in inanimate objects (the leaves danced in the wind), and certain musical forms or genres.
3.One of the earliest structured uses of dances may have been in the performance and in the telling of myths. It was also sometimes used to show feelings for one of the opposite gender. It is also linked to the origin of "love making." Before the production of written languages, dance was one of the methods of passing these stories down from generation to generation.
4.According to a Sinhalese legend, Kandyan dances originate, 2500 years ago, from a magic ritual that broke the spell on a bewitched king.
5.Although dance is often accompanied by music, it can also be presented independently or provide its own accompaniment . Dance presented with music may or may not be performed in time to the music depending on the style of dance. Dance performed without music is said to be danced to its own rhythm.
6.Dance therapy -http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dance_therapy

Well, maybe you'll understand the words in bold or why they make you wonder.And then again, maybe not.Their may be no need to.

Right now, I know nothing important.
Sometimes, there is no need of a reason, nor faith.Perhaps just flowing with the wind.

I can only guess.

I'm just writing words of how I feel.These might not even make sense.

Life, is different now.
Or that, I just noticed that it is now.

:)